whirlwhind

The warmth of the happiness and brightness and fiesta mixed with the cold darkness and tristeza creates a tension that inevitably forms a current that swirls into one mass, melding the two temperatures into a median point. 

The songs like Ella, speaks of sadness of lost love. How the singer wishes darkness to swallow him up, the mariachis and tequila causing him to cry. However, amid the sadness it also speaks of how good those days filled with love were. The reason why he can be so sad now, is because of how good the times were before. The darkness is filled with memories of brightness. There must be one to have the other.

This piece reminds me of when my past boyfriend and I broke up. It reminds me of how there seemed to be everlasting darkness pressing from all sides, threatening to squeeze the life out of me and cast me down into darkness where I can only hope to see a pinprick of light from the outside of my dungeon. However, I look back now and then and I realize how much I learned, mostly because I refuse to be seeped in darkness and regret. I refuse to have him dictate my life now, so I use what happened to my advantage. As much as I don't like to admit, I realize that I had a great time in that relationship. What's even more striking and heart-warming is that after the relationship in my time of depression, I had so many friends and family to support me to get me through that hard time. I am filled with love to know how much brightness I was given and how much love kept me afloat. It's like the golden, bright yellow, and copper beads in the center. They undeniably stand out, shining, even amid the stark brightness surrounding it.